After waking my boyfriend up at 6:30 then falling back to asleep, I was rudely awakened by my baby (I refer to my kitten as "Baby", not my boyfriend btw, haha) snapping the straps of my tanktop against my back, over and over. She'd bite it, pull up, and release. She has tact, about everything she does, it's ridiculous because she's just a kitten haha she's the best kitten ever. Anyways, I thought I could just ignore her and she'd leave me alone but then she began nibbling on my bony shoulder blades like they're pieces of meat or something. So I got up, got some coffee (which was delicious with my caramel-vanilla Coffeemate creamer, lol I usually just get plain vanilla) then played with her and her remote control mouse. I bought it yesterday, Poe loves it. It only works on a flat hard surface though, and I live in a trailer with my mom so we only have a tiny kitchen and since I don't feel like visiting with my mom out in the living area I just empty out my dirty clothes bin in my room and let her chase it in there. Then I hopped on here, read some blogs, and decided I wanted to write one without anything to write about so I decided to tell you about my boring morning.
I watched the superbowl with my boyfriend last night, we cuddled and fell asleep eventually though, lol. I'm glad the saints won, they/the city of New Orleans needs it. God, I want to go back to New Orleans. My family and I vacationed there a few years ago and I loved it.
We're in the middle of a long snow storm here in the Twin Cities of Minnesota, supposed to get 10 inches by tonight
I have nothing else to blog about right now though, lol, so I'm off, bye bye.

P.S. I really, really hate how there's a box ALREADY checked to update this to my non-existent facebook. I don't have a facebook, and I don't want one. You need friends in order to have a facebook, the only people I would be friends with on there are my horrid classmates from high school, no thanks. Gosh I sound pathetic sometimes.

I'm not feeling my best this morning, I'm almost certain I have pneumonia. I had a cold that ran it's course almost two weeks ago, but I still get random hot flashes, horrid blood tinged mucus, and I've been really sluggish with the general ill feeling. I'm going to ask my mom to take me to Urgent Care later on today.

I really hate that I have to go places with my mom. I'm so close to getting my own car, just one month away. But until then, I have to go out with my mom. I could ask my boyfriend, but I'd hate to have him drive a half hour to take me somewhere that's 5 minutes away, you know? So, I will go with my mother. Speaking of my mom, I'm almost 90% sure she's developing Paranoid Schizophrenia. Her brother had it, so the chances of her developing it are a little more than the average person, about 10%. About 5 months ago she suddenly became very depressed, started despising social interaction, I catch her talking to herself occasionally,  she's very paranoid about people and the government , she doesn't even look like the same person. I look into her eyes and it is not my mother. She is seeing a therapist and I'm really hoping that her therapist will pick up on these things, because I know my mother wouldn't tell her about them. And on top of that, she may have breast cancer in her right breast. She is scheduling a biopsy to confirm that. If it is cancer, the doctors said it is a very early stage of breast cancer so her chance of survival is great. Which is really good, but I'm still worried. All I can do is pray for her.

My birth control appointment went well with the doctor, and she ran some blood tests to see if I have thyroid problems. She's worried because of my ridiculously high resting heart rate, and I'm also 5' 7" and 109 lbs. (naturally) and since my mother has hyperthyroidism, I'm a pretty good candidate for it. I'm not very worried about it though, it's not a life-threatening condition when treated appropriately. And who knows, if I start taking medication for it maybe it will help me gain weight! It's really uncomfortable being skin and bones sometimes, when I knock a hip/elbow/knee on something, it's like taking a hammer straight to my bone because I have no fat padding to cushion the blow. So, hopefully if I am diagnosed with hyperthyroidism I can get some medicine to help, or not, we'll see.

Also, MY DOCTOR WAS SO NICE TO ME. I love her. LOL, really she was a nice little old lady who seemed genuinely concerned about me and it made me want to cry because she had a motherly way about her and since my mother's MIA due to her (I believe but I'm not a psychiatrist) schizophrenia it just made me want to hug her. I think I'm going to keep returning to her. I do have a primary doctor, but this doctor was so much more thorough and caring.

I am so excited to kick start my life when I get a car. I can get a better job, start going to school, start going to the gym, ohhhh the possibilities are endless! I need to keep my friend-making goals in sight too, I need friends and people to share my happiness with. Yes I have my boyfriend, but it would be good for me to have platonic healthy friendships. I have to try and work past my shyness and awkwardness or work with them if I can't work past them, I think college will be a good place to find potential friends too.

And if anyone reads this: Although it seems like I'm just using this as a journal, I would like to make friends on here too. It is so easy for me to have a conversation via keyboard, but in person it is a bit more difficult. So if you want to say hi you can go ahead, or not that's okay too. But I have to go to work, byebye.

This is my anonymous blog. I will write about whatever I'd like, whenever I'd like to. I'm excited, it will be my place to vent or gush or complain or whatever, it will be fun I also enjoy reading other blogs, almost more than writing them. So if you see my footprints on your site, don't get creeped out it just means I like your blogs.

I'm not here to get into arguments about religion, politics, etc. Just to have fun reading and writing blogs, okeydokey? Alright.